When we push ourselves beyond comfort, we grow, correct? When we want to do something better, we practice, persevere, and change our routines in order to develop better habits and mastery, don’t we? So in trying to improve my blog by reviewing old posts while writing new ones that I edit more closely, am I becoming a sharper writer by focusing so much longer on one post at a time while chained to my chair, or am I becoming stupider because I cannot process nor execute anything substantial within an eight hour work period?
The Smarty Pants part of my mind thinks that the list of new ideas sprouting left and right are ingenious, but the Annie Adderall part sees that these ideas take no root and then I am quickly bored by them. Is my cognitive processing tearing down old muscle to build newer stronger mental muscle or am I just diminishing any function I have left? Do you ever think, “Hmm… maybe I’m NOT getting better at this? Maybe I can’t REALLY do everything I have my mind set to?” That’s a pretty stupid way to think, isn’t it?
Stepping away for a weekend to let these negative thoughts cannibalize each other is what I needed to do. My gut came in to tell me that stupidity is not the mental challenge I am struggling with. My doubts that scream, “This effort and time are meaningless,” is what is stupid. The resistance of the mind and the resistance of one’s will does not signal I am getting stupider at what I do. I am phenomenal at nitpicking when it comes to my writing (in)ability. It’s a hard habit to break.
When we put in genuine, heartfelt thought and action into something over and over again, it is going to result in cumulatively helping us get better at the work. This was a hard message for me to believe, even though it came out of my mouth (by way of other much more insightful gurus whose words I love to read and listen to).
When in doubt, you just have to step away. In my case, it was time to step away from stupid. Take a trusted friend along for the journey or make new ones, like I did. Lucky for me my steps took me all the way to Spicewood, Texas.
Step away, even if you aren’t exactly sure where you are going.
Fill the well
Listen to the words of someone smarter than you. Find out what makes them so smart. Get smarter yourself.
Be busy – the crafty kind
the fun loving kind
the soulful kind
Write it all down. Talk about your lightbulb moments with friends. Find your champions/tribe. Listen to what they have to say. Listen to what your intuition and your heart tell you.
Then go home and get right back into it. It’d be stupid not to.
Check out the fun we had on Instagram #TXSC15 and read up on other recaps & camper notes on Twitter using the same hashtag if you would like to see more of the action from the weekend.
Remember, it was not just fun and games – we did a lot of serious work. This was a conference/ workshop afterall. But you can’t blame us gals for having a heck of a grand time in the process!